Motormouth Maybelle: Well, love is a gift, a lot of people don't remember that. So, you two better brace yourselves for a whole lotta ugly comin' at you from a neverending parade of stupid.
The following quote comes from the 2007 remake of "Hairspray" with John Travolta in drag (Yes, that's right. Danny Zuko in drag). Anyways, the quote above comes in late within the film, but before the big, customary, and musical finale. After (I believe, as I am writing this at 4 AM in the morning, so what happened may not be accurate) Seaweed (Elijah Kelley) and Penny (Amanda Bynes) discovered that they loved each other and returned to Motormouth Maybelle's with Tracy (Nikki Blonsky). The quote above is Motormouth Maybelle's warning that there will be people against their love because of its difference.
Anyways, my school's primary mission was made clear at this orientation. Basically the school priest (again, 4 in the morning and not thinking straight) was "leading the school" in its 1st prayer ceremony. It was like the mass, only without the host (or as I call it, the magic Cracker). Everything was going fine until we got to the homily. It's within this that he states the school's primary purpose, to "strengthen" our relationship with "God". He then goes on and states that if we fail to "strengthen" that relationship, then the school has "failed us".
Now, from my understanding, the purpose of school was for us to get an education so that we can gain knowledge and be productive and a good member of society. Not to "make our faith stronger". Continuing on...
The second time I began to notice my school's primary agenda was the same day, but at the 2nd prayer ceremony. Basically, the little freshman were getting hungry and bored and they started to "talk" during the prayer ceremony. He then goes on a screaming and mad as hell rant on how they are in the presence of "God" and that they should be respectful. Now, I fully understand why they need to be respectful (according to Christian dogma) but did they not realize that maybe they were hungry or that they really don't give a damn? Then, I began to realize that they were gonna shove all the Jesus they can down our throats, even if we throw it back up.
Now comes my dilemma.
I have yet to tell anyone face to face about my deconversion. I can't really tell my parents, as both are believers in one form or another. My out-of-school counselor is Jewish, but I don't see him for a while. My guidance counselor is very religious (not fundy religious, but religious enough that she tried to give me prayers to "help me"), and turning to her might prove fatal for any chance of getting into a college (as she has to give a reccomendation). Teachers aren't a good idea as well because I have to get a letter of reccomendation out of a few of them.
So that leaves my fellow classmates.
On one side, most really don't care about their faith. Most blow it off and don't really care about their faith. Hell, most say those magical two words every 4.2 minutes.
On the other hand, its a CATHOLIC high school and things get around in high school real fast. My main fear is the reaction I'll get from the higher-ups and teachers abroad. Many teachers know me as a "good boy" and "a really great person". The part is that many of these teachers are catholic and committed to their faith. With that being said, I risk putting myself on the cutting block Another problem is that the people that "I am friends with/hang out" most of the time are catholic to some extent and leaving the faith might be a social suicide.
- Hairspray (2007)
The following quote comes from the 2007 remake of "Hairspray" with John Travolta in drag (Yes, that's right. Danny Zuko in drag). Anyways, the quote above comes in late within the film, but before the big, customary, and musical finale. After (I believe, as I am writing this at 4 AM in the morning, so what happened may not be accurate) Seaweed (Elijah Kelley) and Penny (Amanda Bynes) discovered that they loved each other and returned to Motormouth Maybelle's with Tracy (Nikki Blonsky). The quote above is Motormouth Maybelle's warning that there will be people against their love because of its difference.
Now, why did I quote "Hairspray" of all movies? Well, its the only quote I can think of that describes what I'm feeling at the moment.
To those who don't know (basically, with the blog being new, everyone), I have just deconverted and I now believe in deism. The part is I have yet to tell anyone face to face. Now, I attend a catholic high school (not telling what school to avoid tipping people off if I decide not to "come out") and one of the main goals of the school is to "increase our relationship with God". This was made clear a few weeks back when I was volunteering at my school for the freshman orientation. I only really do these events just to be with people (because people make people happy as I concluded) especially my friends.
My original plan was to tell one of my trusted (athiest) friends at this event that I am no longer a Christian, but she didn't show. Of those who did go, they were people (of upperclassmen) that I didn't really know, some who I knew a little more on but don't really trust, and those who I am "friends" with but cannot personally trust due to reasons I perfer not to go into here.
Anyways, my school's primary mission was made clear at this orientation. Basically the school priest (again, 4 in the morning and not thinking straight) was "leading the school" in its 1st prayer ceremony. It was like the mass, only without the host (or as I call it, the magic Cracker). Everything was going fine until we got to the homily. It's within this that he states the school's primary purpose, to "strengthen" our relationship with "God". He then goes on and states that if we fail to "strengthen" that relationship, then the school has "failed us".
Now, from my understanding, the purpose of school was for us to get an education so that we can gain knowledge and be productive and a good member of society. Not to "make our faith stronger". Continuing on...
The second time I began to notice my school's primary agenda was the same day, but at the 2nd prayer ceremony. Basically, the little freshman were getting hungry and bored and they started to "talk" during the prayer ceremony. He then goes on a screaming and mad as hell rant on how they are in the presence of "God" and that they should be respectful. Now, I fully understand why they need to be respectful (according to Christian dogma) but did they not realize that maybe they were hungry or that they really don't give a damn? Then, I began to realize that they were gonna shove all the Jesus they can down our throats, even if we throw it back up.
Now comes my dilemma.
I have yet to tell anyone face to face about my deconversion. I can't really tell my parents, as both are believers in one form or another. My out-of-school counselor is Jewish, but I don't see him for a while. My guidance counselor is very religious (not fundy religious, but religious enough that she tried to give me prayers to "help me"), and turning to her might prove fatal for any chance of getting into a college (as she has to give a reccomendation). Teachers aren't a good idea as well because I have to get a letter of reccomendation out of a few of them.
So that leaves my fellow classmates.
On one side, most really don't care about their faith. Most blow it off and don't really care about their faith. Hell, most say those magical two words every 4.2 minutes.
On the other hand, its a CATHOLIC high school and things get around in high school real fast. My main fear is the reaction I'll get from the higher-ups and teachers abroad. Many teachers know me as a "good boy" and "a really great person". The part is that many of these teachers are catholic and committed to their faith. With that being said, I risk putting myself on the cutting block Another problem is that the people that "I am friends with/hang out" most of the time are catholic to some extent and leaving the faith might be a social suicide.
I start of Friday and I need a bit of advice. Should I "come out" or keep it to myself? (That is what the next poll question is to those who care)
I'm really confused on what to do and its just one of those things that I need to see a few perspectives.
- TORM
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